Weight...."Watcher" Right???

On Monday I showed up at a new member weight watchers meeting. I have been there before. In fact, after having Kenadee AND Morgan I got frustrated not being able to lose the last 5 or so pounds. So each time I wound up at weight watchers, AND IT WORKED!!! It's been 9 months since I had my 3rd beautiful girl Tenlee and I have found myself in the same predicament, but this time it's more like 8 or 9 pounds. I have fought with myself for the past month or so because I want to lose the weight, but my motivation as far as eating better hasn't been there until Monday. That is when I decided it was time, time to take control and remember how to eat better and get the rest of this baby weight off.
I excitedly walked into the building ready to go.....but they didn't seem ready for me. The last two times I did it I didn't feel welcomed at all. Luckily it only took me 2-3 weeks of doing the program to lose the weight, so I stopped going. Each time, and Monday was no exception, they made me feel as if I am an alien and have no right to be there. Not only do the other ladies that are there to lose weight give me weird looks and whisper to their friends, but the ladies that WORK there treat me the exact same way. Monday night was a lot worse than my two previous times going. I walked up to the counter where you sign the papers, pay your money, and get all the information. I stood there for a good 5 minutes waiting to be helped. The two women behind the counter watched me walk in and immediately looked at the desk PRETENDING to have something way more important to do. How do I know this? Because as soon as this heavier woman walked through the door a few minutes later, they greeted her with open arms and started getting her all signed up. I was beyond frustrated!! I continued to stand there, and FINALLY one of the ladies said "Can I help you?" I told her I want to sign up..."This is a new member class isn't it?" She shook her head and said yes. She proceeded to tell me, "Well honey you look so tiny so I'm gonna have to weigh you first and see if you even qualify to do it." ARE YOU SERIOUS? She should just be happy to take my money...right? No! She weighed me and looked at her charts. Everyone has a range for their age and height at what is considered to be a "normal, healthy" weight. She told me I could do it, but they would only let me lose 8 lbs because that puts me at the lowest "healthy" weight. I explained to her I have done this 2 times before and am perfectly aware of that. I know I am not huge and don't have a ton of weight to lose, but MY "normal" is not where I am at now. My goal is to just lose those 7-8 pounds to get to my pre-baby size. She listened to my spill and said ok she would sign me up. I was so mad at how they treated me! I TOTALLY understand that there are people bigger than me, but I need to be happy with myself RIGHT?? It is weight "WATCHERS" right?? I am not coming to be a twig or look too skinny. I am here to "WATCH" what I eat and be a healthier me.I am doing it to force myself to eat healthier and lose a few pound...then I'm done.
After I came home frustrated, I had to remind myself to stop worrying about what other people think of me. I am the one that has to be happy with myself! There are ALWAYS going to be people bigger than you, no matter what size you are! I can't worry about that, and worry about those people who might be mad because I am smaller and STILL think I need to lose a few. I am doing it for ME, not for anyone else. Sorry, just had to vent a little! ha ha